We always think we are now at the end of our discoveries. We never are. C. G. Jung
“Barbara, sweetheart, daughter dear—you never listen!” I heard that a lot as a teenager. Dad was right. Why listen? I already had all the answers.
After college, I confronted reality full time. Although I learned to balance a career with married life, parenthood presented a never-ending learning curve with a constantly moving target. Just when I got a handle on caring for an infant, she became a toddler. My chatty little girl started school, but soon became a teen, shrugging her answers to everything. At each stage, I had to learn new ways of relating to my growing child. When my grown daughter became a mother herself, I discovered the joys of being a grandmother.
Meanwhile, I’d coped with life by working hard and being self-sufficient. Then, life threw a disabling car accident and diagnosis of MS my way. Things changed again. Forced to rely on others, I learned a few things about myself:
- I had little self-worth apart from my accomplishments.
- Although I thought I believed in God, I didn’t really trust him—I trusted my own capabilities.
My discoveries didn’t stop there. Surprisingly, family and friends seemed to like me better once I relaxed and stopped trying so hard. I began to discover who I really was instead of who I thought I should be. I also discovered that even if things didn’t go my way they could still turn out just fine. I began to trust God.
After my first marriage ended I spent seven years alone, doubting I’d ever be in another relationship. New discoveries awaited. This year my “new” husband and I celebrated our 11th wedding anniversary.
More recently, I discovered I could pursue my dream of writing and that there were publishers and readers interested in what I had to say.
I’m still learning to let go of my agenda. I want to risk trying new things. Why? Because there is much joy waiting to be discovered—and I’m never at the end of my discoveries.
How about you? What new awarenesses have you discovered? What discoveries might be just around the corner?
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